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My Public Display of Dieting – Week 40

Me in a swimsuit Oct 6 - first time I'd gotten into this suit in four years!

Me in a swimsuit Oct 6 – first time I’d gotten into this suit in four years!

RESULTS: ON VACATION!!

I’ve been on vacation this past week. I can’t remember the last time John and I were on a real vacation. I can’t remember the last time I felt so relaxed and carefree. It was wonderful! (It took a few days to get to that point, but it was awesome!)

And since we’d originally picked this date months ago because it coincided with John’s birthday, there was a lot of eating from day one! 😀 We had cake and ice cream and a million snacks the first day when a few friends came over to surprise John for his birthday. Then we went to the grocery store and found some great items in the Manager’s Meat Specials section and John made an amazing steak and potatoes and blackened green beans meal on Monday.

We had a gazillion different breakfast pastries, chocolate chip blueberry pancakes, eggs and maple bacon, eggs and breakfast steak, hashbrown-stuffed hamburgers, gallons of soda pop, wine and hard cider and whiskey (one of John’s birthday presents), and a half dozen treats we picked up at Costco before we got to the resort.

And that doesn’t include all the things we ate but forgot about!! 😀

It was a super fun week for a dozen reasons, and we really enjoyed it. Our shorts definitely felt tighter on the return trip home, but it was worth it. As of today, we are both back on the wagon. Very little sugar or alcohol, very little bread, very few calories in general! Haha!

So next week, after I get rid of whatever I gained this past week, I’ll get on the scale again and keep working at my goal of losing 50 pounds in 50 weeks. Since I’m about 10-ish pounds behind, I’ll almost certainly have to extend my time frame for my 50-pound goal, but I’ll keep going till I hit it. Yay!

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 39

Smiley face with thumb upRESULTS: Lost 0 pounds for a total loss of 28 pounds

Last week, one of my friends commented that I need to stop focusing on what I haven’t done (lose 39 pounds in 39 weeks), and instead focus on what I have done.

I’VE LOST AND KEPT OFF 28 POUNDS!!!! WOOHOOOOOO!!!!!

Thanks for the reminder, CG. 😀 

This week we’ll be celebrating John’s birthday, so there will be cake, ice cream, pizza, In N Out burgers and fries, peanut butter-filled pretzels, chocolate-covered almonds, and so much more. I hope to get at least one run along the beach, but at this point I’ll just be glad to enjoy life, enjoy health, and renew my goal next week to lose 50 pounds.

I hope you have a great week! 😀

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 38

RESULTS: Gained back 1 pound for a total loss of 28 pounds

OuchLike yesterday’s post about my running, this one about my dieting is just depressing. I used the “Ouch” image for both because I don’t have an unhappy smiley face. This past week, I’ve barely even tried. I want to drown my troubles in sugar-filled cookies and chocolate-covered almonds and Wild Cherry Pepsi and margaritas. And yet – of course – when I try, it only makes me feel worse.

I’m ten pounds and ten weeks – two and a half months – behind my goal. The cause of my weight gain is the same as the result: a dispiritedness that I can’t seem to shake.

The one thing that keeps me going is the fact that I promised to blog about my journey for the fifty weeks. I credit this with keeping me from gaining back ten pounds rather than three. And at this point, I’ll take all the small favors I can find.

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 37

RESULTS: Lost 1 pound (of 3 gained) for a total loss of 29 pounds

Found a church close enough to walk to!

Found a church close enough to walk to! Only 2 miles!

In a perfect world, that would say, TOTAL LOSS OF 37 POUNDS above. But it’s not a perfect world and I am far from a perfect person. 🙂 My stress eating has lessened, but now my mind and body has gotten back into some bad habits, so I’m trying to get myself to want to eat healthier.

(Let me just say that the sweet potato tortilla chips from Trader Joe’s dipped into the Lay’s Ranch Dip are awesome!!)

So in last week’s entry, I wrote that I probably gained a couple pounds. After finding my scale, I’m guessing I probably gained 3 pounds, or else there’s a difference between the other scale I was using and ours. In any case, since I found our digital scale, I lost one of the gained pounds, so that’s good.

But I’ve got to find a way to get back to eating healthier. I’ve gone over calories 5-7 days out of 7 the last few weeks. I’m 8 pounds, and therefore, as many as 8 or more weeks behind. But…I told myself yesterday that I wouldn’t quit until I got to 50 pounds, even if it turns out to be in  55 or 60 or more weeks.

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 36

RESULTS: Unknown – probably gained a couple pounds

OuchJust when I think life may stop throwing punches, I get a roundhouse kick in the gut. And what happens? After too many hits, I begin to revert to my former stress-eating behaviors. 🙁

I’ve done a ton of overeating this past week. Additionally, I can’t find my bathroom scale in all the boxes I’ve unpacked. I still have about three-quarters of the boxes left to unpack, so I’m sure I’ll find it at some point. But I have no idea how much I weigh.

Which may be just as well. Until I find the scale, I can regroup and refocus on eating less and eating healthier. I absolutely hate that I’m getting so behind in my work, especially in the classes I’m teaching, but all of this physical labor in unpacking and setting up our apartment is at least helping me burn a few more calories.

We went to a wedding Sunday, so I’d decided on Friday I would hit the Restart button today, Monday. It was another tough day, and I ate a lot of things I shouldn’t have. So imagine my surprise when I found that I’d only gone 50 calories over my limit! It actually encouraged me to work hard again tomorrow. Thank you, God. I needed some encouragement.

I’ve been having a lot of how am I going to get through this? days. I’ve overeaten, and I’ve eaten sweets and chips and stuff I shouldn’t while I’m trying to lose weight. But at least I haven’t given up. I’m behind. I may not reach my 50-pound weight loss goal in 50 weeks, but I’m going to keep going and keep trying.

If you’re struggling, hit the Restart button with me. We can keep going, one tiny step at a time, together.

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 35

RESULTS: Lost 0 pounds for a total loss of 31 pounds

Bathroom scaleWhen I weighed myself this weekend, I hadn’t lost any weight, but I hadn’t gained any weight – which, under the circumstances, I considered a win.

It’s been a stressful few weeks. We just moved about 40 miles closer to John’s work, among many other stressful things. There is a lot of extra exercise involved in moving, sure, but also a lot more junk food and stress eating. (Delicious yummy junk food like pizza and chips and dip and soda!)

I’m still unpacking, and I haven’t found my scale yet. But when I do, I’m not sure how to compare it to the last 35 weeks since it’s not only a different scale, but it’s digital instead of analog/mechanical. Plus, I had a really, really bad day yesterday and ate three-quarters of a bag of kettle potato chips in a sitting. Yikes.

All that to say…I’m a month behind my goal of a pound a week for 50 weeks, I’m dealing with some really tough stressors in really defeating ways, I haven’t run in a week…but I’m still going, still working it, still getting rid of clothes that are too big. 🙂

So…that’s all I’ve got…just putting one foot in front of the other, one step at a time. If you’re doing the same, hang in there! Somehow, we’ll make it through this tough period together.

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 34

RESULTS: Lost 1 pound for a total loss of 31 pounds!

31 pounds lostAfter an awful lot of stress eating and lack of exercise this week, I didn’t think I’d done enough to keep my calorie count low enough to lose any weight. So imagine my surprise when I got on the scale and I was down a pound!

Yippeeee!!

MyFitnessPal rewarded me with this lovely little celebratory badge. It makes me feel like I can keep on going.

Of course, you win some, you lose some. Or, in this case, you lose some, you lose some. Now that I’ve lost yet another pound on my 50-pound journey, MyFitnessPal took away another 40 calories from my daily intake. What are they thinking?? How am I supposed to stress eat with fewer calories??

I was a little worried that I’m losing muscle instead of fat since my exercise has decreased lately. But two days ago, I pulled a pair of shorts down over my hips to my ankles – while they were still zipped and buttoned! I guess that’s another pair for the donation bag. 🙂

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 33

RESULTS: Lost 0 pounds for a total loss of 30 pounds

I don’t know what it was this past weekend, but I really fell off the wagon! Friday night I was so tired, by the time I sat down in front of the TV about seven o’clock, I just wanted to munch on something. I ate half a dozen celery sticks, but covered in cream cheese. Then I went and microwaved one of those mini bags of kettle corn popcorn. I knew my desire for food was all in my head (tired and stressed) when none of that took the edge off. But at least I stopped eating.

My full plate at a potluckSaturday I was supposed to get up and go for a run before my RWA meeting in San Diego, but I was exhausted and decided to sleep instead. Without the run, I’d really have to be careful with the calorie count because our meeting was a potluck! Well, I looked over everything before I took a plate (that helps me choose beforehand, which helps me not to overeat so much), but I still ended up with a full days’ worth of calories in that one meal! (That is a homemade bratwurst there! And boy, do I wish I knew where those taquitos came from!)

The amazingly delicious food on this plate is about 700-800 calories – and worth every bite! Then I ate several fabulous desserts and two cups of yummy pomegranate juice. My daily calorie limit to lose one pound a week is currently 1510. (It keeps dropping as I lose weight, darn it.) The calories I ate just at the potluck were over 1600!

And THEN John came home and I made the most delicious guacamole, and John made his trademark fabulous margaritas, and…well, suffice it to say that Saturday’s total calories should’ve lasted me two days. Then Sunday I was just, like, screw it, I’m going to finish enjoying the weekend and start again on Monday.

On the one hand, I feel bad that I overdid it so badly. On the other hand, Saturday and Sunday’s food was absolutely delicious! John made a grilled cheese sandwich for dinner Sunday with mushrooms, bacon, avocado, and tomato. The sandwich alone was nearly 800 calories! LOL! But it was amazing! (He grilled one side of the bread in the bacon grease – oh my gosh!)

One of my friends called it a spontaneous diet vacation – LOL!!!! I love it! So that was my weekend. Monday, I went out and ran, and I ate “normally” and on track. So the fact that I got on the scale this morning and weighed the same as last week, well, I’m just grateful! (Especially since, technically, I’m three pounds behind my goal.)

Anyway, new day, new choices. We can only keep moving one step at a time, right? But at least we’re moving. 🙂

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 32

RESULTS: Lost 1 pound for a total loss of 30 pounds!

Laughing and pointing emoticon

Okay, so this is pretty hilarious! I’ve been procrastinating putting this post up because I was so irritated that I’d gained a pound. But I don’t know what number I was comparing it against because I weigh 168 as of yesterday (the first day this week I could weigh myself) and that is down 30 pounds from Day 1.

WOOHOOO!!!!! 😀

By the way, it took me five years to gain that 30 pounds, and 7 1/2 months to lose it. I think that’s pretty good. 🙂  I now weigh what used to be my normal weight for over 10 years. Yay! (And when I get to my goal 20 pounds from now, it will be just three pounds over my wedding day weight!)

I haven’t been able to do the strength training exercises the last couple weeks so I’m concerned about both not losing fat, and losing muscle. But I’m crazy busy with work, so at least I’m keeping up my running.

Did sprints and hills this morning and all I want is sleep! 🙂  My muscles hurt and I need to take much more time to stretch than I have been. I’ve been doing “superman” core exercises along with seven other abdominal exercises and, boy, do they make my lower back tight! I could barely bend at the waist this morning. But…I guess at least it reminds me I need to stretch more…?

Okay, deep breath, here we go, hopefully another pound gone by next week!!

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 31

Excited smile emoticonRESULTS: Lost 1 pound for a total loss of 29 pounds!

After some really difficult weeks, I’ve been amazed and entirely grateful for a week that wasn’t as hard. Even on the day from hell when I came home and had a double-shot margarita with chips and cheese, I was only about 100 calories over my “allowance” – because I had an extra 600+ calories from running that morning.

Friday, I even had pizza and cheese bread for dinner (Thanks, Doug!) because I hadn’t eaten that much earlier in the day. Awesome! Seems to me that guilt-free pizza is a great way to dig in and keep working hard. Haha!

I’m more than halfway to my goal of 50 pounds in 50 weeks, and so close to being on target. I still can hardly believe that it’s happening! Seems like almost every day I’m putting on clothes that are just about too big and need to be put in the giveaway bag, or clothes that I haven’t been able to wear in a few years, or I think about where I lived and what I was doing the last time I was at this weight or that weight.

And I can tell when I’m running how different it feels to run with less and less weight to move around every week. That’s pretty awesome, too.

So…here’s to another week of both of us making progress!