My Public Display of Dieting – Week 41

RESULTS: Lost 0ย pounds for a total loss of 28 pounds

Hand pushing the restart buttonYes, this blog is really late! It’s almost time for the week 42 update. But at least it gave me a couple extra days to lose that extra vacation weight! Haha!

So as of Wednesday of this week, I was back down to 170, having lost the 3-5 pounds I’d gained. Whew! Now I have to get back on the exercise wagon and hit the Restart button. I’ll tell you on Sunday, in my Chubby Girls Run column, what’s going on and how things are about to change. ๐Ÿ™‚

Meanwhile, one thing I’ve really noticed lately is that things I used to think tasted great, or things that sound like they should taste great, don’t really taste that great. I ate an Entenmann’s apple cider donut this morning with apple cider. (It’s fall! Of course I have to have apple cider and donuts!) But let me just say that it tasted more like a donut-shaped sugar bar with a touch of apple-cinnamon flavor. Big disappointment. ๐Ÿ™ I guess the upside is that I won’t be eating any more of them.

Also, the more protein I eat, the less I have sugar cravings. So now that most of our junk food is gone, I’m getting back to eating more protein and not wanting the junk food. Again – whew! There was a point a few days ago when I was afraid I’d rewired my body chemistry back to the out-of-control way of overeating I’d gotten caught up in the last few years. Yikes!

Oh, one more thing that might be just a way for me to keep track rather than terribly interesting to you. I’ve started having headaches again, a lot of them. I don’t know if it’s the new apartment, the new town, an extra dose of stress, the extra sugar and junk food, the two weeks without taking probiotics because they were on order, or – probably – a combination of several of these things. But as of today, back on probiotics, cutting way back on sugar and junk food, and let’s see how that affects the headaches.

See you again in a few days! ๐Ÿ™‚

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 40

Me in a swimsuit Oct 6 - first time I'd gotten into this suit in four years!

Me in a swimsuit Oct 6 – first time I’d gotten into this suit in four years!


I’ve been on vacation this past week. I can’t remember the last time John and I were on a real vacation. I can’t remember the last time I felt so relaxed and carefree. It was wonderful! (It took a few days to get to that point, but it was awesome!)

And since we’d originally picked this date months ago because it coincided with John’s birthday, there was a lot of eating from day one! ๐Ÿ˜€ We had cake and ice cream and a million snacks the first day when a few friends came over to surprise John for his birthday. Then we went to the grocery store and found some great items in the Manager’s Meat Specials section and John made an amazing steak and potatoes and blackened green beans meal on Monday.

We had a gazillion different breakfast pastries, chocolate chip blueberry pancakes, eggs and maple bacon, eggs and breakfast steak, hashbrown-stuffed hamburgers, gallons of soda pop, wine and hard cider and whiskey (one of John’s birthday presents), and a half dozen treats we picked up at Costco before we got to the resort.

And that doesn’t include all the things we ate but forgot about!! ๐Ÿ˜€

It was a super fun week for a dozen reasons, and we really enjoyed it. Our shorts definitely felt tighter on the return trip home, but it was worth it. As of today, we are both back on the wagon. Very little sugar or alcohol, very little bread, very few calories in general! Haha!

So next week, after I get rid of whatever I gained this past week, I’ll get on the scale again and keep working at my goal of losing 50 pounds in 50 weeks. Since I’m about 10-ish pounds behind, I’ll almost certainly have to extend my time frame for my 50-pound goal, but I’ll keep going till I hit it. Yay!

Chubby Girls Run – Along the Beach

Capistrano BeachLast week, I said I was at least going to pack my running shoes and clothes for vacation, and I hoped to get out at least once. Well, I made it!

I went running along the path near the beach Wednesday and Friday. Oh, how my muscles hurt!! (Red is for them screaming in pain.) ย But it still felt good to be out. The first day, I ran along the path south, thinking I’d be able to at least see the ocean from the path. But it quickly curved inward around a private, gated subdivision and all I got to see was the cars and trains along the Pacific Coast Highway.

Friday, I turnBeach morning runed north and ran past the state park and through the parking lots with people just waking up and coming out of their tents.ย That was nicer because the ocean was in view the whole way, and there wereย lots of other runners.

I did four miles both days, hoping that I wasn’t overdoing it with so few runs the last six weeks, and I’ll do four miles three or four days this week, too. If more crazy things don’t happen in my life, I should be ready and able to run the Carlsbad Half Marathon in January – with my best time ever! ๐Ÿ˜€

What We Learn From Our Favorite Stories

For years, my all-time favorite movie was Sleepless in Seattle. Even when my screenwriting teacher in a professional program gave me the stink-eye, I wouldn’t change my answer. I have watched that movie so many times, I’m surprised the DVD hasn’t worn out. (I’ve owned it so long, I used to have the VHS tape, too!)

Then Richard Curtis wrote some big blockbuster romantic comedies that I love. Love Actually and Notting Hill are my two favorites. Even my husband, John, likes all three of these movies because they are smart and funny and have great lines of dialogue that you can’t help quoting later.

I love these movies so much that I’ll even watch them on Netflix, even though we own all three on DVD. And oh, Netflix, how I love you. Let me count the ways. That’s where I first watched The Decoy Bride with the hilarious Kelly Macdonald and the awesome David Tennant. I’ve watched that movie sooo many times! I bought it on Blu-ray because I wanted to make sure I could watch it in high quality forever. But then I had to buy it on DVD, too, because that’s the only way I could watch it on my computer. I’ve never done that before, buying more than one copy!

And what’s my go-to movie for sick days? The Family Man. Tea Leoni and Nicolas Cage are absolutely adorable, and those kids! And the best friends! The movie makes me laugh every single time I watch it.

I love romantic comedies. I love reading them, watching them, writing them, talking about them. Like I said, they’re my medicine for bad days. And lately, I’ve had truckloads of bad days.

Thank God for romantic comedy writers because I found some new medicine two weeks ago. I’d seen on Facebook that my friend Sean Gaffney (same screenwriting program I was in) had written a new movie called In-Lawfully Yours. I guess I’m a bad friend for not paying very good attention because I thought it was coming out in the theater this fall, but it came out on Netflix!

I was scrolling through the New Releases and saw the title and thought, how funny, Sean’s movie has that same title. And hey, the movie poster looks kind of – hey, that is Sean’s movie! LOL! I was having a bad day so I watched it during lunch. It is soooo adorable! The hero and heroine really played off each other so well! And the characters seemed like people I’d probably know, people I’d want to be friends with if they were real, not like pretend movie characters.

I felt so much better after watching it, just like medicine. I wanted to watch it again right away, but I controlled myself. I waited until lunch the following day. Aw, wow, it was just as funny the second time. It had been a stressful week, so I turned it on again at lunch for the third day in a row. Still had me laughing and smiling! If you like rom-com’s, you’ve got to watch this movie!

In addition to feeling better, watching a movie several times helps you consciously and unconsciously work through what you like about it, and why. You start thinking about what you don’t like and why. And if you’re a writer, you start going over your own characters and asking yourself how they can become better after seeing some other amazing fictional characters on screen or in a book.

One thing about the writing in In-Lawfully Yours. If they hadn’t gotten the right actors, it could’ve been a little dopey. That’s the risk with humor – it’s got to be the right kind, in the right amount, for the right audience. Of course, that’s the risk with movies in general. Wrong actor, bad movie. Right group of actors, amazing movie!

So when I watched this movie for the third time in three days, I had to stop thinking about these actors who had such good chemistry, and I had to think about the characters I write who will ever and only play out in people’s heads. And that’s when I remembered…

When I wrote Little Miss Lovesick, the first several drafts were aimed at Silhouette Romance (kind of like Harlequin, if you don’t know) and the humor was mild, the kind of humor they’d already published. But when I took a risk and wrote the kind of humor that had me laughing as I was typing, a whole new level of fun story developed! It was no longer the kind of book Silhouette or Harlequin or several other houses were buying. (That was a problem for me until self-publishing came along.)

But the readers who enjoyed Little Miss Lovesick really loved it! My risk paid off and I found my writer voice. Since then I’ve had to push myself to get to the edge of my comfort zone and see what else I can do. I can’t let fear or complacency take hold because I’ll lose what it turns out my readers want. (Plus, it’ll be way less fun for me!)

What stories do you read or watch over and over again? What are you learning from them? Are you letting those favorites push you to become a better writer? Give it some thought.

Meanwhile, I’m going to go watch In-Lawfully Yours again. Thanks for writing such a fun story, Sean! And thanks, Chelsey Crisp and Joe Williamson, for making me laugh with and fall in love with a new favorite couple! I’m such a happy Kitty! ย ๐Ÿ˜€

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 39

Smiley face with thumb upRESULTS: Lost 0ย pounds for a total loss of 28 pounds

Last week, one of my friends commented that I need to stop focusing on what I haven’t done (lose 39 pounds in 39 weeks), and instead focus on what I have done.


Thanks for the reminder, CG. ๐Ÿ˜€ย 

This week we’ll be celebrating John’s birthday, so there will be cake, ice cream, pizza, In N Out burgers and fries, peanut butter-filled pretzels, chocolate-covered almonds, and so much more. I hope to get at least one run along the beach, but at this point I’ll just be glad to enjoy life, enjoy health, and renew my goal next week to lose 50 pounds.

I hope you have a great week! ๐Ÿ˜€

Chubby Girls Run – Sometimes Even on Vacation

Silly Kitty after her run

Silly Kitty after a run in June

I’m writing this post on Friday, actually, because I’ll be very busy on Sunday (when it goes live) celebrating John’s birthday! Woohooo!!!

We had an opportunity several months ago to get away this week for an inexpensive vacation. We’re sooo glad we took the opportunity because we sure need the break! ๐Ÿ™‚

I can’t say for sure that I’ll be running this week, but I hope to get out at least once. One thing I know for sure – I’m packing my running shoes and clothes! Only 3 1/2 months till the Carlsbad Half Marathon so, even though I’m not worried, I need to start focusing no matter what.

I’ve got 15 weeks to get strong and fit to run another 13 miles. Let’s go!! ๐Ÿ˜€

Nerdy Kitty – Playing Dungeons & Dragons LIVE

I don’t know why – blame it on the sugar – but a few weeks ago (Sept 2) I was playing Dungeons & Dragons (D&D) with John and some friends, and I suddenly decided that what we really needed was to record our antics on Facebook Live. LOL!

It’s long and funny and ridiculous and boring (for some of you watching, not for us!) and hilarious and just way too much fun. ๐Ÿ˜€ This was the last game in an adventure that had been going on and off for about a year, and included some of the most fun people I’ve ever gamed with.

Now I’m not a huge gamer like John and lots of our friends. I like playing in John’s games, though, because his stories are interesting and he always makes me feel like it’s okay that I don’t know what I’m doing or which dice to use. ๐Ÿ™‚ But my friend Tracy told me today she really doesn’t know what D&D is at all, didn’t realize it was a live game with real people around a table, so I told her I’d post this so she could see what it looks like.

Feel feel to use the little bar to move further ahead and get a quick overview of our antics. ๐Ÿ˜€ This is only a small portion of the time that we played, but we had an amazing time!! Hope some parts of the video make you laugh!

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 38

RESULTS: Gained back 1 pound for a total loss of 28 pounds

OuchLike yesterday’s post about my running, this one about my dieting is just depressing. I used the “Ouch” image for both because I don’t have an unhappy smiley face. This past week, I’ve barely even tried. I want to drown my troubles in sugar-filled cookies and chocolate-covered almonds and Wild Cherry Pepsi and margaritas.ย And yet – of course – when I try, it only makes me feel worse.

I’m ten pounds and ten weeks – two and a half months – behind my goal. The cause of my weight gain is the same as the result: a dispiritedness that I can’t seem to shake.

The one thing that keeps me going is the fact that I promised to blog about my journey for the fifty weeks. I credit this with keeping me from gaining back ten pounds rather than three. And at this point, I’ll take all the small favors I can find.

Chubby Girls Run – Except When They Don’t

OuchLife has been really difficult lately (second verse, same as the first ๐Ÿ™ ), and I’ve gotten barely one run in per week. I’m desperately out of shape, and terribly far behind in preparing for the Carlsbad Half Marathon in January. Sigh…

All I can do is keep trying to find a way through my troubles and keep going. I don’t know how, but I’ll just have to keep choosing every day not to give up.

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 37

RESULTS: Lost 1 pound (of 3 gained) for a total loss of 29ย pounds

Found a church close enough to walk to!

Found a church close enough to walk to! Only 2 miles!

In a perfect world, that would say, TOTAL LOSS OF 37 POUNDS above. But it’s not a perfect world and I am far from a perfect person. ๐Ÿ™‚ My stress eating has lessened, but now my mind and body has gotten back into some bad habits, so I’m trying to get myself to want to eat healthier.

(Let me just say that the sweet potato tortilla chips from Trader Joe’s dipped into the Lay’s Ranch Dip are awesome!!)

So in last week’s entry, I wrote that I probably gained a couple pounds. After finding my scale, I’m guessing I probably gained 3 pounds, or else there’s a difference between the other scale I was using and ours. In any case, since I found our digital scale, I lost one of the gained pounds, so that’s good.

But I’ve got to find a way to get back to eating healthier. I’ve gone over calories 5-7 days out of 7 the last few weeks. I’m 8 pounds, and therefore, as many as 8 or more weeks behind. But…I told myself yesterday that I wouldn’t quit until I got to 50 pounds, even if it turns out to be in ย 55 or 60 or more weeks.