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My Public Display of Dieting – Week 38

RESULTS: Gained back 1 pound for a total loss of 28 pounds

OuchLike yesterday’s post about my running, this one about my dieting is just depressing. I used the “Ouch” image for both because I don’t have an unhappy smiley face. This past week, I’ve barely even tried. I want to drown my troubles in sugar-filled cookies and chocolate-covered almonds and Wild Cherry Pepsi and margaritas. And yet – of course – when I try, it only makes me feel worse.

I’m ten pounds and ten weeks – two and a half months – behind my goal. The cause of my weight gain is the same as the result: a dispiritedness that I can’t seem to shake.

The one thing that keeps me going is the fact that I promised to blog about my journey for the fifty weeks. I credit this with keeping me from gaining back ten pounds rather than three. And at this point, I’ll take all the small favors I can find.

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 37

RESULTS: Lost 1 pound (of 3 gained) for a total loss of 29 pounds

Found a church close enough to walk to!

Found a church close enough to walk to! Only 2 miles!

In a perfect world, that would say, TOTAL LOSS OF 37 POUNDS above. But it’s not a perfect world and I am far from a perfect person. 🙂 My stress eating has lessened, but now my mind and body has gotten back into some bad habits, so I’m trying to get myself to want to eat healthier.

(Let me just say that the sweet potato tortilla chips from Trader Joe’s dipped into the Lay’s Ranch Dip are awesome!!)

So in last week’s entry, I wrote that I probably gained a couple pounds. After finding my scale, I’m guessing I probably gained 3 pounds, or else there’s a difference between the other scale I was using and ours. In any case, since I found our digital scale, I lost one of the gained pounds, so that’s good.

But I’ve got to find a way to get back to eating healthier. I’ve gone over calories 5-7 days out of 7 the last few weeks. I’m 8 pounds, and therefore, as many as 8 or more weeks behind. But…I told myself yesterday that I wouldn’t quit until I got to 50 pounds, even if it turns out to be in  55 or 60 or more weeks.

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 36

RESULTS: Unknown – probably gained a couple pounds

OuchJust when I think life may stop throwing punches, I get a roundhouse kick in the gut. And what happens? After too many hits, I begin to revert to my former stress-eating behaviors. 🙁

I’ve done a ton of overeating this past week. Additionally, I can’t find my bathroom scale in all the boxes I’ve unpacked. I still have about three-quarters of the boxes left to unpack, so I’m sure I’ll find it at some point. But I have no idea how much I weigh.

Which may be just as well. Until I find the scale, I can regroup and refocus on eating less and eating healthier. I absolutely hate that I’m getting so behind in my work, especially in the classes I’m teaching, but all of this physical labor in unpacking and setting up our apartment is at least helping me burn a few more calories.

We went to a wedding Sunday, so I’d decided on Friday I would hit the Restart button today, Monday. It was another tough day, and I ate a lot of things I shouldn’t have. So imagine my surprise when I found that I’d only gone 50 calories over my limit! It actually encouraged me to work hard again tomorrow. Thank you, God. I needed some encouragement.

I’ve been having a lot of how am I going to get through this? days. I’ve overeaten, and I’ve eaten sweets and chips and stuff I shouldn’t while I’m trying to lose weight. But at least I haven’t given up. I’m behind. I may not reach my 50-pound weight loss goal in 50 weeks, but I’m going to keep going and keep trying.

If you’re struggling, hit the Restart button with me. We can keep going, one tiny step at a time, together.

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 35

RESULTS: Lost 0 pounds for a total loss of 31 pounds

Bathroom scaleWhen I weighed myself this weekend, I hadn’t lost any weight, but I hadn’t gained any weight – which, under the circumstances, I considered a win.

It’s been a stressful few weeks. We just moved about 40 miles closer to John’s work, among many other stressful things. There is a lot of extra exercise involved in moving, sure, but also a lot more junk food and stress eating. (Delicious yummy junk food like pizza and chips and dip and soda!)

I’m still unpacking, and I haven’t found my scale yet. But when I do, I’m not sure how to compare it to the last 35 weeks since it’s not only a different scale, but it’s digital instead of analog/mechanical. Plus, I had a really, really bad day yesterday and ate three-quarters of a bag of kettle potato chips in a sitting. Yikes.

All that to say…I’m a month behind my goal of a pound a week for 50 weeks, I’m dealing with some really tough stressors in really defeating ways, I haven’t run in a week…but I’m still going, still working it, still getting rid of clothes that are too big. 🙂

So…that’s all I’ve got…just putting one foot in front of the other, one step at a time. If you’re doing the same, hang in there! Somehow, we’ll make it through this tough period together.

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 34

RESULTS: Lost 1 pound for a total loss of 31 pounds!

31 pounds lostAfter an awful lot of stress eating and lack of exercise this week, I didn’t think I’d done enough to keep my calorie count low enough to lose any weight. So imagine my surprise when I got on the scale and I was down a pound!

Yippeeee!!

MyFitnessPal rewarded me with this lovely little celebratory badge. It makes me feel like I can keep on going.

Of course, you win some, you lose some. Or, in this case, you lose some, you lose some. Now that I’ve lost yet another pound on my 50-pound journey, MyFitnessPal took away another 40 calories from my daily intake. What are they thinking?? How am I supposed to stress eat with fewer calories??

I was a little worried that I’m losing muscle instead of fat since my exercise has decreased lately. But two days ago, I pulled a pair of shorts down over my hips to my ankles – while they were still zipped and buttoned! I guess that’s another pair for the donation bag. 🙂

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 33

RESULTS: Lost 0 pounds for a total loss of 30 pounds

I don’t know what it was this past weekend, but I really fell off the wagon! Friday night I was so tired, by the time I sat down in front of the TV about seven o’clock, I just wanted to munch on something. I ate half a dozen celery sticks, but covered in cream cheese. Then I went and microwaved one of those mini bags of kettle corn popcorn. I knew my desire for food was all in my head (tired and stressed) when none of that took the edge off. But at least I stopped eating.

My full plate at a potluckSaturday I was supposed to get up and go for a run before my RWA meeting in San Diego, but I was exhausted and decided to sleep instead. Without the run, I’d really have to be careful with the calorie count because our meeting was a potluck! Well, I looked over everything before I took a plate (that helps me choose beforehand, which helps me not to overeat so much), but I still ended up with a full days’ worth of calories in that one meal! (That is a homemade bratwurst there! And boy, do I wish I knew where those taquitos came from!)

The amazingly delicious food on this plate is about 700-800 calories – and worth every bite! Then I ate several fabulous desserts and two cups of yummy pomegranate juice. My daily calorie limit to lose one pound a week is currently 1510. (It keeps dropping as I lose weight, darn it.) The calories I ate just at the potluck were over 1600!

And THEN John came home and I made the most delicious guacamole, and John made his trademark fabulous margaritas, and…well, suffice it to say that Saturday’s total calories should’ve lasted me two days. Then Sunday I was just, like, screw it, I’m going to finish enjoying the weekend and start again on Monday.

On the one hand, I feel bad that I overdid it so badly. On the other hand, Saturday and Sunday’s food was absolutely delicious! John made a grilled cheese sandwich for dinner Sunday with mushrooms, bacon, avocado, and tomato. The sandwich alone was nearly 800 calories! LOL! But it was amazing! (He grilled one side of the bread in the bacon grease – oh my gosh!)

One of my friends called it a spontaneous diet vacation – LOL!!!! I love it! So that was my weekend. Monday, I went out and ran, and I ate “normally” and on track. So the fact that I got on the scale this morning and weighed the same as last week, well, I’m just grateful! (Especially since, technically, I’m three pounds behind my goal.)

Anyway, new day, new choices. We can only keep moving one step at a time, right? But at least we’re moving. 🙂

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 31

Excited smile emoticonRESULTS: Lost 1 pound for a total loss of 29 pounds!

After some really difficult weeks, I’ve been amazed and entirely grateful for a week that wasn’t as hard. Even on the day from hell when I came home and had a double-shot margarita with chips and cheese, I was only about 100 calories over my “allowance” – because I had an extra 600+ calories from running that morning.

Friday, I even had pizza and cheese bread for dinner (Thanks, Doug!) because I hadn’t eaten that much earlier in the day. Awesome! Seems to me that guilt-free pizza is a great way to dig in and keep working hard. Haha!

I’m more than halfway to my goal of 50 pounds in 50 weeks, and so close to being on target. I still can hardly believe that it’s happening! Seems like almost every day I’m putting on clothes that are just about too big and need to be put in the giveaway bag, or clothes that I haven’t been able to wear in a few years, or I think about where I lived and what I was doing the last time I was at this weight or that weight.

And I can tell when I’m running how different it feels to run with less and less weight to move around every week. That’s pretty awesome, too.

So…here’s to another week of both of us making progress!

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 30

RESULTS: Lost 1 pound for a total loss of 28 pounds!

Kitty July 2016 - a little thinner

I can see the difference in how I look!

Can you believe it’s about 60% of the way through 2016?! Today marks the 60% mark of my journey to lose 50 pounds in 50 weeks – and it’s still shocking to me that I’m pretty close to on target! 🙂

In addition to counting calories, I’ve been exercising regularly – running, circuit training, and abdominal exercises to increase my core strength. The hardest part is not eating more after exercising when I’m hungry. But the more protein I consume, the easier it is to stick to my current limit of 1510 calories per day, even after the exercise.

I say “current” because it used to be more when I was heavier. It was easier to lose weight when I was heavier. I could make some mistakes and still lose when I was heavier. That is changing now. And I see better why I didn’t lose weight when I tried a few years ago when I was at my now current weight. I really didn’t understand how few calories I could consume and still make progress.

The most shocking thing that occurred this week was trying on clothes that haven’t fit in two or more years – and finding many of them loose! And for the first time in two years, I put clothes in the giveaway pile because I didn’t like them, not because they didn’t fit. I had far too many clothes I didn’t like that I wore because they were the only items that fit.

I think it’s the clothes thing that is giving me the most willpower to keep going! 😀

One more day, and one more day, and one more…

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 29

RESULTS: Lost 1 pound for a total loss of 27 pounds!

Kitty lost 26 poundsI’m not sure if it was really a full pound, but it looked pretty close on the scale. And I can’t feel too bad about it if it was only a half pound or so, because it was only a few days ago that I weighed myself for the last entry.

Either way, I’m making progress! I’m 2 pounds behind, but I’m doing it! (I had to share the cool graphic that popped up on the My Fitness Pal app a couple days ago when I finally dropped off that plateau.)

If you read my post from yesterday, I’m back to exercising fairly regularly now that I’m home again. Whew! It’s crazy hot – about 68-72 degrees (20-22 C) at 4:30 in the morning when I have been going out. I have to get back before the sun rises or I’m just too hot and exhausted to keep going.

I have noticed one major problem – I’ve gone back to emotional eating again. 🙁 This is very sad. It’s because my life has gotten overwhelming again, and sometimes I just want some chocolate or cheesy bread or a margarita to make myself feel better. I’m trying to chew some gum, or even some celery, or brush my teeth when I want to eat…but I haven’t yet.

Praying to notice that I’m about to emotionally overeat before I do it. At least I’ve finally realized what the problem really is. Maybe now I can start catching up on those other two pounds. We’ll see! 😀

My Public Display of Dieting – Week 28

RESULTS: Lost 3 pounds for a total loss of 26 pounds!

YESFinally!!! 😀  Hahaha!!

Man, I was beginning to wonder when I would ever lose another pound. Since I was away all last week at the Romance Writers of America National Conference, I had no idea how much I weighed, whether I was doing a good or poor job at managing my calorie intake, or anything else. What a relief to finally drop off this plateau!

I’m still two pounds behind my goal, but at least I’m now past the halfway mark! Only 24 pounds to go in the next 22 weeks!

I don’t have anything particularly helpful to share this week except this – don’t give up, and don’t stop trying!!

I didn’t exercise as much as I wanted to at the conference, but I was able to get in a spectacular run on the first morning. (Running along the edge of the San Diego harbor was one of the nicest runs ever!) And I went to my first Zoomba class on the second day of the conference. I really wanted to go to the yoga-pilates class on the third morning (most writers have more than one thing they do well, and there was a fitness instructor and a chiropractor who gave classes for us sedentary writers), but I was so exhausted by then I couldn’t get out of bed early enough. 🙂

I spent a good part of Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday of this week apartment-hunting, so no exercise those days – up before dawn. Finally, yesterday I did my 4-mile run again. A whole week without exercise made it tough, but I pushed myself and did it only 2 seconds slower than last week. Yay!

So that’s all I’ve got for you – don’t give up, keep going, hit the restart button again as soon as you can, and once again – don’t give up! 😀